Eva* talks about what led her to contact Jigsaw and what the experience of getting one-on-one support from a Jigsaw Clinician was like for her
I was going through bit of a rough time. I was thinking that I was going to have to talk to someone about all of the things that were happening for me. So I googled Jigsaw and looked at the website and read the stories as well. I did wonder, is this really going to help me? Is this genuine? I just wasn’t sure what the service is about.
One day my rough times escalated … It was the month before my exams. I was in the library and I was so down that couldn’t focus at all. I was thinking, if this is going to continue, I will mess up my exams. I was constantly thinking about my worries and it wasn’t doing me any good. That’s why I decided to make a move and talk to someone.
Relief to talk
I remember when I walked inside Jigsaw for the first time. I thought this is something that could benefit me and this is the right place to be right now. I just wanted to speak to someone and just let it all out because at that stage I hadn’t mentioned anything to anyone. It was such a relief to talk about the feelings and the thoughts I had at the time and to not be judged and not be asked questions I didn’t want to answer.
If you say things to your family, they look at the problem or issue from their point of view. I didn’t feel like my parents would understand what I was going through. They would just ask about what they were interested in; they wouldn’t really want to know my thoughts or position. I knew that people working in Jigsaw wouldn’t judge me. They were going to look at it like an objective by-stander. They were going to look at my perspective and opinion and that really helps.
The first session that I had I was asked, “What’s the issue?”, and I just started crying. It was a really stressful time. The support worker I met at Jigsaw just listened and I just found that extremely, extremely helpful. She calmed me down and told me, “If people have an issue with your problem, then it’s their problem, not yours.” I remember that very vividly. It’s not my problem if other people are not accepting.